expect the unexpected

halfway through 2012, this seems to have become the theme of the year. first atlanta, and world 50. then him. now, the one person i expected least of all.

i knew we had come a long way, and a long way further than i ever thought we could, but this . . . this was unimaginable. utterly impossible. i guess we both really have grown up. to the point where he can confront me about it out of concern, rather than anger or disappointment, and i in turn can answer him honestly, without denial, and own up to my decisions. to be able to claim them as exactly that—my decisions. to have him speak to the value of our relationship, and his pride in me, and the fact that this nor anything else could never change that. how far we have come.

we dream of the people those close to us could be, the people we want them to be, to grow into. but that was all it ever was with me and him—a dream. and now that it is real, i don't quite know what to do. it is both relieving and terrifying to have crossed that line, where there are no more secrets. it is a land i have yet to discover. what will come of it? i can only guess.

i suppose it really is true; all children do grow up.




i know we've come a long way
changing day to day
but tell me, where do the children play?